dee’s posterous

As she bends down to do her washing,

-she looks back in fear

As she bends down to fetch firewood,

-she looks back in fear

As she bends down to collect water from the river,

-she looks back in fear

As she bends down to light the fire,

-she looks back in fear

As she bends down to help herself,

-she winces in pain

As the sun falls down into the horizon,

-she shakes in fear

As she lies down on her mat to sleep, she longs for the light of day

Up in the mountain, there lived a young girl...

A young girl of different perception...

Perception in relation to life...

Life which seemed elusive...

Elusive to the mystical existence...

Existence questioned by all...

All who seemed not to care...

Care for what tomorrow brings...

For tomorrow may never come!

Remember i had talked about a "Writer's Club", I never made it back to the club, i guess i was chucked from the list or maybe the group just collapsed after the first meeting. I don't know really what became of the group. If it's still on, i would assume i was not invited for a second meeting because of my perverted mind. I wish i had more stuff to post, but that would have only been possible if at all i was actively involved in the group, now that am not...its so unfortunate.

Some people view themselves as angels and it always irks me on their perception of sex, and some members of the group guess were opposed to sexual topics. That reminds me, I met this guy, lets call him Stephen (hoping he is not on posterous), but then again i dont care if he is because i have decided to clean my closet and get rid of all his skeletons. It was so annoying on how this guy thought of himself as an angel and when he met me he thought he had met a wife, who would bear him three kids at a go. It's the same guy i wrote about in a couple of posts back...thank god i had not deleted the first email from the social network that we met!

For the sake of madness, i am going to share my un-edited communication with him, not leaving out any single bit...though names of places  and numbers have been changed for confidentiality purposes:-)

Stephen:

Hi Debonairs, do you want to go to the beach , feel like swimming today ?

Debonairs:

It's too windy outside...(it was very windy on that particular day)

Stephen:

Hello  Debonairs,

First of all, welcome in Neec, in Foinze, and on my page.

I looked through your photos and i like your profile, you really sound adventurous and funny, interesting  , a nice person to meet.

Can we be friends ? 

So are you from Seychelles or Kanada ? anywhere is good. hakuna matata

See Ya, Stephen (He was playing the role of the Ambassador of his country)

Debonairs:

Thanks indeed for the compliments...i come from Kanada...just got here in February...av been to Seychelles and i loved it....and wouldnt mind settling there one of these fine days! (You got to go there to believe me)

Stephen:

I have never been neither Seychelles nor kanada, but I 'd love to. Got friends from Nandwa. The wind is dropping, what are you up to this afternoon ? stick to your computer ? don't want to rush you at all , but why not trying to meet  eachother, go for a walk , a ride or a  drink later on ?  just friendly (I already knew what was on his mind)

Debonairs:

I have no plans whatsoever...i never make plans ...i rarely get to go out because i haven't made any friends...and thats why am stuck behind this computer...not that i dont mind ...i like it very much...but wont mind meeting up with you...remember am adventorous...if i was to decline your offer, then it loses its meaning...so, what are you upto?

Stephen:

Cool, i thought you went offline for a while. well, tonight there is  an excellent  live concert from brazilian rumba salsa band at parc phoenix, by the airport , have heard they are the best musician, and bonus it is free access. what do you think ? I though about going for a swim  B4 coz it s  getting hot in here. have you got a mobile ?  mine is 01 90 54 53 48, if not tell me where you are at what time and I 'll come pick you up  OK ? (and you thought the best things in life are not free, think again!)

Debonairs:

I love that pic...So, what are your plans like.. .if we meet between now and when the concert starts? You still want to go swimming? (At this point, he had changed his profile picture, and it was a good one)

 Stephen:

 Debonairs, you made my smile come out (to this day i wonder what else came out)

I think concert starts about 9 pm, couldn't find out  and swimming will take me half an hour, so have you got a phone I could call you or an adress , we 'll even have time to eat som' if you feel like. so where are you ?

Debonairs :

am based in Montenegrot....on your way to Grass....you know where it is? 03 87 06 21 81 thats my number...(am fast like that, ad put superman to shame!)

Stephen:

Ok sweet ,  I know where is Montenergot, but where do I pick you up : an adress so I can find out on google map? Is 7.30 pm a good time for you ?  THE END!

So we met, and the rest is on a story told on the post, "Succesful Date Finally"...for those who want to make a connection before the next email is posted:-)

Disclaimer:

You will notice a few grammatical errors on Stephen's conversation, this is because English is his second language...he really tried working it out though...guess that's how far the strength of a woman can stretch...by bringing out the best in everybody.

Below, in my opinion, is how each age-group fares on in the art of Kissing.

In my life, I have kissed frogs, toads, lizards, sheep, warthogs, just to mention but a few and, throughout this treacherous journey…it’s sad that am yet to kiss the Prince. Though am glad to say that am not holding my breathe for the day that I’ll kiss the Prince for the obvious reason that it may never dawn.

Teenagers to mid twenties (17-26)

I have no clue of what a kiss feels like from the younger generation and not interested while at it.

Age group late 20’s to early 30’s (27-32)

The trophy for the best kissers goes to men in my age group. They are in my opinion the “Prince” . They do it so well, with perfection and precision…they are so passionate about it and for a ripe mind, a kiss from this age-group is enough to make you burst. You’d think they went to some school of sorts where kissing was part of the curriculum. Just to let you know that it is from this group that I learnt and honed my skills in kissing…for those who have happened to have a taste of what my luscious kiss is like. Big up guys for representing.

Age group Mid thirties to early and mid 40’s

This is the most annoying group! They do it by the book and maybe what they watch. This is the group I would refer to as the “Lizards” (pun intended), figuratively speaking. See how lizards stick out their tongues to catch their prey…that’s how they do it. Since am the curious type that always want to learn different things, I sought for advise from someone who falls in the first category and they told me that that is a man’s way of telling a woman, “I want to bed you badly”. Surely, with me, a good kiss would definitely lead to more even if those were not my intentions. Therefore ‘lizards’ had better change their ways and after reading about how to kiss and watching (this group mostly rely on pornography materials)…then I’d suggest that they had better put into practice all that they have learnt!

Age group Late forties upwards (to infinity)

Okey, am not very discriminative thus, I take pride in having sampled this age group as well. This is the group I would refer to as the “Sheep/Warthog/Pig” …see how a sheep drools and just stare at nothing for a long time without moving or blinking, yes…and how a warthog is not very interesting to look at for all its ugliness and how a pig hogs its food…yes, that’s how this age group fairs on. Hehehehe…excuse me for I had to laugh, kissing men in this age group will always leave you in a daze, a stupor…more like a temporary mental lapse…because these ones don’t know whether they are coming or going! Picture someone banging their head on the wall in repetitive strokes…yes…that’s how they do it…suck and pull…suck and pull…woe unto you if they decide that now its mouth to mouth, for the weak hearted, you might end up throwing up…because at this point, they have no control of their saliva…and since they always feel like they know it all, usually, efforts to teach them how it’s done are always in vain. A few end up learning…and most end up on the highway!

The Primitive

This is the less exposed group…a group I’d term as the ‘”Frogs” . They have no exposure at all, some don’t even know how to spell the word ‘KISS’…(just to give you an idea of how clueless they are). What they’ll do’s that, they will assume the kissing position, close their eyes (because someone told them eyes are always shut), stick out the tip of the tongue (thank god they don’t stick out the whole tongue), put their hands behind their backs…remember how we used to stand when someone older than you was addressing you…yes, that’s how they do it. At this point, am always blank and confused as to whether I was meant to assume the same position as them…so for the sake of humanity I always end up faking a kiss, that always leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth!

I may be biased in my report, but remember, I speak for myself…am sure everybody has got different experiences…for the philanderers like me. Next time, I might decide to write on sex…don’t be so sure though…it’s a thought am still debating on.

I managed to post this using a different email add as opposed to what i registered with, thus the need to re-post it again...

We were meant to be ten members but only seven managed to turn up and the whole thing was a success. This was a group of people of diverse backgrounds and between the ages of 28 and 32. The meeting went on well into the night and was a total success.

The topic was on Vision and it was to be presented in either a short story form or whatever came to mind...below is what i wrote...

VISION

 If asked, I would say a vision is a dream, it's a desire, it's a foresight, it's the distance between where we are and how we want things to be or what we want to achieve.

I have a vision, a vision of all people living in harmony as brothers and sisters. This may sound far fetched, but I believe it is attainable. Only if people decided to change their evil ways and to some extent beliefs, which are brought about by evil thoughts that eventually lead to evil acts, incitement, anger, jealousy, just to mention but a few. This can only be possible if children are taught the value of love from tender ages. Not just love of the nuclear family, but love towards everybody, treating one another as brothers and sisters. If this is instilled, then they grow up with that virtue and wouldn't therefore wish to harm, anger or betray others, instead they shall always be there for one another just like brothers and sisters.

Normally during the weekends, I used to walk home as opposed to taking a bus, merely out of fun watching people and as part of exercising the body. So, on this day ahead of me, was an old lady, old enough to be my grandmother who was walking with a slight limp and had somehow managed to balance two bags which from a distance looked heavy. I noticed how people walked past her without a care of how heavy her bags were and that's when I decided to quicken my steps to catch up with her and lend a hand. She was skeptical at first, and I did understand where she was coming from because in the world today, we can never be so sure when it comes to strangers, but I insisted on helping and took the heavier of the two bags.

 We proceeded with our journey and had some conversation in between, in which I did most of the listening and enjoyed every moment of it. She told me about her children and her struggles with life and how things never worked out for her children who turned out to be nothing a parent would ever expect and, I told her some of my experiences so as to levelise the grounds and make her feel that everybody has got their share of problems in different ways. I asked her how come she didn't take a bus considering her age and the amount of weight she had to carry, it so happened that she didn't have any extra monies left after the shopping she had done for her orphaned grand-daughter whom she had so much praise for, and herself. Her limp got worse and I could read strain written all over her face, that's when she told me that the problem was not with her legs but it stemmed from her chest and she hadn't accumulated enough monies for the Doctor's fee. Basically, all her problems were as a result of little cash or none at all. From her talks I figured out that she was such a hard-worker because everything in her life revolved around her fourteen year old grand-daughter whom from her speech, was an excellent pupil and well behaved and that since her problems moulded her to a responsible individual, she felt compelled to give her the best that she could.

 I realized she was not telling me all this to win my sympathy, for I also had a choice of walking past her, but maybe it was because she needed someone to talk to. I believe talking things out has got some form of remedial healing, and maybe that's what she was feeling at the time…like a heavy burden easing out with every word she uttered. It hit me that I'd gone well past my destination, that's when on impulse I got out my wallet and gave her some little cash which I had estimated would be enough for her medication and her upkeep for some days to come. To say that she was humbled may be an understatement because of how she lacked words to even express her gratitude. I did what I did out of love for another being, a stranger whom I knew nothing of, not even her name. Surprisingly am telling this story for the first time as it is what came to mind when I thought of the word, vision.

I recently joined a social online group which am sure most of you might be conversant with, about couch surfing...attended a 'writer's club' organised by one of the members and have so far made a few good friends...who are willing to show me around their cities whilst hosting me for free in their houses.

The idea may sound far-fetched to those who are always wary of strangers, but for those who have tried it...then it is always feasible. I couldn't get a public ride back home after the meeting because it was late...and one of the members let me sleep in their bed whilst they took the couch. That was truly humbling. The following day we had a long walk along the sea...had lunch and i went back home a happy lady. Soon, i shall even start hiking and doing lots of other things that i have never thought i'd do in my life simply out of being lazy.

I have also began undertaking my French lessons...which i must say is not one bit interesting! French language is as complicated as the people themselves and the only way i shall be able to learn it am told, is by intergrating with them. This is another hope that should be kept alive by all means.

I haven't been upto much because i've got my hands full, my only wish being that they turn out into money-making ventures...all the same, am having some form of fulfillment doing what am doing....including my Webdesign course which really knocks the lights out of my head.

Abientot!

Ever since i was introduced to the world of internet way back in 1998 (not long ago), considering that's' when we had the birth of google, i have always been intrigued by it, (who isn't anyway?). So i took the prestigious course of introduction to computer which enabled me to manouver through the basics but my interests have always been to dig deep and be able to get to the root course of it all. Thus, recently upon some advice from an internet pal, i decided to start studying HTML...it may be a walkover for those who started studying it a while back, and i must say am enjoying every single step of my own tuition. This am able to achieve through all the free courses being offered online from various websites. Frankly speaking, I don't know where am headed with this rather, i seriously don't know what i shall be able to achieve by all this, but the personal fulfilment is what keeps me going.

As of now, am able to do the basic stuff on Web design from formatting, to tables, to frames to forms...and now i feel like am ready to plunge in even further and learn the Scripting languages (i guess that is the programming bit of it). I have no guideline, am just taking things as they come. When i got to 'Forms' that's when i knew about 'Scripting'. I have always known that Java supports 'chats', a thing which i do best (read chatting) but didn't know its a Programming language, just until recently. Frankly speaking, i have always envied the techies and always wanted to be like them, the more reason why i took it upon myself to study internet in depth and be able to do all the codings and all that pertains to programming...it is a long journey, but i believe i shall make it through. Internet to me, is what religion is to our religious brethrens of whatever standing, thus i get my personal fulfilment from learning the coding lingo, now that...

I may not be in a position to visit posterous as frequently as i used to when it first landed on my doorstep...but once in a while will do as i have now discovered a new venture.

In the past, i have committed a couple of shopping gaffes but the worst is when i went to buy myself some lotion. For the simple and obvious reason that i don't understand the French language, i tend to rely more on drawings and pictures displayed on the products as opposed to the writings. So here i am at the supermarket, going through the myriad of lotions on display and BOOM i go for what i think is the best. The bottle has a sun like drawing you know like the one that appears on Teletubbies, that's what am talking about. At the back of my mind am thinking, "wow 7 Euros for a two in one lotion" being that it is summer, i will not need any sun cream as my lotion will come in handy.

I get home, take a shower and apply my special lotion, to my surprise my whole body glitters, shines, sparkles... considering am pitch dark. I have never been so amused and embarrassed at the same time and never even bothered to ask what the lotion is all about and the notion behind the glitters.

If you must know, am still using the lotion as i cannot afford to waste my hard earned money. I just can't wait to start learning the French language as that will be my only saviour in this land where English is considered a taboo by the locals.